newbobooks Chapter 329
Chapter 329
Later, the fear she really showed completely broke her heart.
In order to escape from marriage and rebel against her mother, and also to fight for revenge, He Yingning chased her out desperately.But because she didn't know how to face her, the clumsy expression made her misunderstand her original intention.
Probably so far, I have left the worst impression in her heart.
Before setting off, He Yingning was actually at a loss.She didn't know what was wrong with her, why she kept thinking about it, why she was so desperate.She didn't admit that she fell in love with Qiu Zheng, because it's weird, they only met a few times? That person has a bad temper, never has good things to say about herself, looks...although he is very good-looking, but his personality is too bad, or Individuals with schizophrenia.He Yingning is a noble lady, she has been well educated since she was a child, and she admires beautiful things, so she really doesn't like such a person.
When the plane is attacked by snow moths, Qiu Zheng is put in danger and almost dies.At that time in the bumpy and rolled cabin, He Yingning felt her heart was about to jump out. What she was worried about was not her own life or death, but the back view when she left the cabin with all her heart and eyes.At that time, there was a thought in her mind, what would happen to herself if she died? Just thinking about it like this felt like a pain in her heart.When she heard that Chou Zheng was safe and sound, the sense of relief, gratitude, and uncontrollable tears finally made her understand that she really fell in love with her.
As the medical vehicle came all the way, she stood by Qiu Zheng's bed and thought a lot.Why do I have feelings for such a person? The conclusion is that most of the time, love always comes suddenly, and there is no specific reason.Of course, she seemed to be aware of some special psychology of her own.
Because she was a good girl since she was a child, playing the role of mother's good daughter and the most elegant heir to the general.In fact, He Yingning has been suppressing her own nature, her rebelliousness, her autonomy are hidden deep in her heart, and the idea of longing for freedom has grown unknowingly, and it has become out of control when she becomes an adult.
To her, hatred and struggle are like the light that leads to freedom.No, maybe it should be compared to the poppy who can't stop, and Satan who lures the forbidden fruit.
She chases feuds as if chasing the real darkness in the false light, dangerous, exciting, and adrenaline-inducing.This depraved pleasure made her feel trembling all over, and it was unprecedentedly fresh, making it hard for her to get away.She has been trapped in this kind of psychology until she finds that she really likes revenge.
She had crossed that line, and there was no going back.
Fear and longing coexist, avoidance and closeness are intertwined, contradictory and entangled, creating the current self.
But these are just her own wishful thinking.She doesn't know what Qiu Zheng thinks, does she really like herself? Is the heartbreak she showed at that time, the gentle and slightly bitter smile under the moonlight, real? Isn't it her own illusion?
He Yingning originally thought that she was sure of the answers to these questions, but when she heard Qiu Zheng's words that you look a lot like someone, everything fell apart in an instant.It turned out that all of this was just her own delusion, a dark and humble imagination, a shady hypocrisy, and what she was chasing was just her own dark side.What she fell in love with was nothing more than a feud that was packaged and packaged after psychological processing.
It's all because of her self-assertive psychology, and now she has asked for trouble.
Can you tell me, who is that person? I heard that there are 3 people in this world who look exactly like me. With a strong force, He Yingning was struggling for the last time.
Her name is Xiaocai. When I was undergoing human experiments in xtx, she was my... patient friend? Hehe... Qiu Zheng sneered sarcastically.
He Yingning's heart sank completely, she knew it, she guessed it! She had mentioned the name Xiao Cai when listening to Qiu Zheng's self-report outside the restaurant of Dongluo General's Mansion.She also knows that this girl occupies a very unique position in Qiu Zheng's heart.She was Qiu Zheng's only spiritual support when he was tortured in the sea of suffering, and Qiu Zheng's affection for her was extraordinary.Xiaocai's death made Qiu Zheng go crazy for the first time, almost slaughtering the entire xtx biological research center, and also made her embark on the path of corruption.
And she seemed to be Xiao Cai's substitute.
You and her...the expressions between the eyebrows and eyes are too similar... Qiu Zheng's blue eyes finally looked into He Yingning's eyes, there seemed to be a kind of obsession and bewilderment in the irises, and the voice gradually became intoxicated , that feeling of weakness, which implies unwillingness and rebellion, that kind of gesture of moths rushing to the flame and chasing the abyss.so similar...
He Yingning's heart palpitations aroused by her words, goosebumps appeared, and then the feeling of nausea overwhelming.
She shook off Qiu Zhan's grasping hand, turned her head and ran towards the back of the medical vehicle, then opened the door of the air pressure chamber, hid in the air pressure chamber, and closed the air pressure chamber with all her might.
She grabbed the doorknob, gasped for breath, her legs were weak, and she knelt down weakly.She trembled all over, and the belated heartache slowly brought tears to her eyes.She sat at the foot of the door, curled herself up, hugged her knees, covered her mouth and wept silently.