newbobooks Chapter 4: Can't I touch it?
Chapter 4: Can't I touch it?
Shen Li then reached out again, poking and touching him here and there, until she had touched him thoroughly before finally holding him and falling asleep contentedly.
Gu Chang'an turned his head and saw the satisfied smile on her lips after she closed her eyes. His subconscious guess made his heart beat faster. He knew he shouldn't think about it, but his heart couldn't help but yearn for it.
if it is real……
But how could that be?
If he hadn't chosen this bloody path, if he were still that spirited and ambitious top scholar, if everything had ended before he turned eighteen, perhaps... there would still be a tiny bit of a chance...
After all, back then, she would joke around with him and speak up for him before the emperor when he was wronged.
She said she believed in Gu Hanlin, that he was a man of high moral character and would never do anything like forming cliques or plotting rebellion.
But then... he closed his eyes in deep sorrow...
When they met again, she was afraid of him, as if she had never known him before.
She simply couldn't accept how a top scholar could become a ruthless and cruel official, how a scholar who couldn't even kill a chicken could start killing without blinking an eye.
He never blamed her... but he shouldn't ask for anything... being able to stay by her side was already a blessing from heaven.
If I can still find some use for her, then all these years of living will not have been in vain.
Shen Li was awakened by a nightmare. She still felt dazed when she woke up, and only when she confirmed that she was lying in Gu Chang'an's arms did her smile slowly spread.
Heaven has been kind to her.
Before dawn, she snuggled closer to Gu Chang'an, surprised to find that despite the man's cold aura, his embrace was warm.
Her smile widened as she looked up at his face, only to be met with a pair of gentle, tender eyes.
Gu Chang'an was stunned for a moment when their eyes met, then quickly and hurriedly looked away and turned his head to look directly at the top of the tent.
He inwardly cursed himself for being so frivolous.
"It's time. I'm checking to see if you're awake," he explained awkwardly.
Shen Li looked at the dark sky outside and couldn't help but smile. She had never been close to Gu Chang'an in her previous life, and she never expected him to be such a shy person.
"It's your own wife, so what if she saw it? Why are you so shy?"
Seeing his Adam's apple bobbing, Shen Li found it amusing, so she stretched out a finger and flicked it as she spoke.
"I didn't... what are you doing now?" Gu Chang'an's body suddenly tensed up, and he stammered.
Seeing his strong reaction, Shen Li was afraid he would run away again, so she awkwardly withdrew her hand and muttered in dissatisfaction, "You won't even let me touch this? You're so stingy."
"Here..." Gu Chang'an's voice trembled, his eyes tightly closed.
How could he not yearn to be close to Shen Li? Even if he were to be strangled to death the next moment, he would be willing to die at her hands.
Shen Li was both surprised and amused. Looking at Gu Chang'an's nervous and shy appearance, she even felt like she was being forced into prostitution.
If you look closely, you'll see that the person's face is completely red.
Is he suppressing his shyness and letting her have whatever she wants?
That being the case...
"Then give me a kiss while you're at it." Shen Li leaned half her body against him, her lips close to his ear: "If you push me away again, I'll really get angry."
Gu Chang'an felt her warm breath enter his ear, and her soft lips gently brushed against his ear. He felt his mouth dry and his mind went blank.
"I don't want you to feel wronged... um..."
Shen Li silenced him with her actions, interrupting his hoarse and restrained voice.
My foot!
Missing out on such a good man would be a sin against heaven; she's a fool for even the slightest hesitation in this life.
Gu Chang'an felt Shen Li's initiative and his heart was pounding so fast that he even forgot how to breathe.
Shen Li was also inexperienced, so she kissed him lightly a few times and then let go, satisfied. Seeing his face turn even redder, she couldn't help but laugh.
"I say, Lord Gu, the mighty Yama, you blush at a kiss?" Shen Li teased with a smile. "It seems people don't know that the best way to deal with Lord Gu is with a honey trap."
Gu Chang'an secretly took a breath, afraid that she would misunderstand, and even though he was out of breath, he still had to explain: "If... if it were any other woman, I would have killed her long ago. How could I allow them to get close to me?"
Seeing his expression, Shen Li was afraid he would suffocate, so she suppressed her laughter and moved to the side, waiting for him to catch his breath.
Gu Chang'an inwardly scolded himself for speaking without thinking, saying things like "fight" and "kill," which must have frightened her again.
He looked at her carefully and explained, "I won't kill them anymore. I'll just drive them away, or I'll leave it to you to decide."
Shen Li knew this person was sensitive, and was afraid he was overthinking things again. She was about to explain when she noticed that his eyes looked a little pale, but she couldn't really see it unless she was very close.
This person's skin is so white it's almost translucent. Even if their complexion isn't good, it's more of a paleness. If it looks bluish-white, it's probably because... they didn't sleep much last night.
"Didn't you sleep well last night?" she asked.
"It's just something on my mind, it's nothing." Gu Chang'an tried his best to keep his voice calm.
How could he sleep with her in his arms all night?
Shen Li could easily guess the reason; it must be that her drastic changes had agitated him.
Looking at his haggard face, she felt both anxious and heartbroken. Gu Chang'an had suffered severe torture in his early years and had a hidden illness in his body. If he didn't get enough rest or was exposed to wind and cold, he would have a hard time getting through it.
But he didn't care. He wouldn't say anything when he felt unwell. He just ate less and didn't rest well. As a result, he became thinner and thinner.
In her previous life, she witnessed all of this from the sidelines, and how could she not be anxious?
Fortunately, she was given a second chance at life.
Fortunately, it's not too late.
"Is something on your mind?" Seeing her silence, Gu Chang'an sat up and said carefully, "I can help you, don't keep it to yourself."
"You guessed right, I have something I need you to do." Shen Li sat up straight, her tone serious.
A sense of desolation flashed through Gu Chang'an's heart.
Sure enough.
But... it's okay...
"Go ahead." His expression remained gentle, even revealing a reassuring smile that put Shen Li at ease.
Seeing his expression, Shen Li knew he had misunderstood again. In her previous life, this person was just like that; every time she wanted to harm him, he would offer her the knife.
In order to alleviate his psychological burden, he always acted as if he didn't care.
It's as if he can do anything, as if he never feels pain...
"Interrogate Liu Ling, find out where the embezzled funds went and who he colluded with, and report to the Emperor." She spoke decisively, a hint of coldness showing in her usually calm and gentle eyes.
In this life, she is determined to bring Li Heng back to his original form, ensuring that this lurking viper will never have the chance to become a dragon.
Is he the chosen one?
She wanted to see what kind of chosen one he was!
Gu Chang'an was greatly shocked, his pupils dilated slightly, and he asked, "Do you know who is behind Liu Ling?"
"I know," Shen Li replied affirmatively.
If she remembered correctly, in her previous life, Li Heng sent someone to invite her back to the Shen family today, asking her to persuade Gu Chang'an to silence the person in prison.
In this life, she will seize the initiative and catch her opponent off guard.